My Life Story

balls

Sun, 22 Aug 2004 06:43:44 GMT

ok, it has been a long time since ive used this stupid journal, and this is going to be my last entry. im happy. i have better things to do now than tell people about my life online. maybe someday ill make another just to make fun of people. anyway, i went to the fair tonight. it was supposed to be awesome, but it got kinda lame. i drank too much milkshake. lifes all good. school soon. music is fun. i enjoy screaming the word "balls" really loud. zach is my life partner. the obscurant is the joke of carmel. ummm... i have nothing important to say. so i guess this is goodbye, forever...

I have a small penis,
Adam Behan

Thu, 10 Jun 2004 05:09:17 GMT

"Show me how you do that trick
The one that makes me scream" she said
"The one that makes me laugh" she said
And threw her arms around my neck
"Show me how you do it and I promise you
I promise that I'll run away with you
I'll run away with you"

Spinning on that dizzy edge
I kissed her face and kissed her head
And dreamed of all the different ways I had
To make her glow
"Why are you so far away?" she said
"Why won't you ever know that I'm in love with you?
That I'm in love with you?"

You
Soft and only
You
Lost and lonely
You
Strange as angels
Dancing in the deepest oceans
Twisting in the water
You're just like a dream...

Daylight licked me into shape
I must have been asleep for days
And moving lips to breathe her name
I opened up my eyes
And found myself alone
Alone
Alone above a raging sea
That stole the only girl I loved
And drowned her deep inside of me

You
Soft and only
You
Lost and lonely
You
Just like heaven

awesome song by the cure. if you havent heard it, i hate you... not really. i think i should get the robert smith haircut. thats it. peace.

music stuff

Mon, 07 Jun 2004 00:19:58 GMT

ok. time to talk about music. i heard the new Taking Back Sunday song and its not bad at all. it kinda sucks that they don't have their old singer/guitarist with the good scream anymore though. ummm, im going to warped tour and i have an extra ticket, so i gotta find someone to take since CJ cant come. i wanna see blink too but 50 bucks is alot of money

i wrote a great song a while ago, and i just recorded it last night/this afternoon. i honestly think its one of the top 3 songs ive ever written, it rocks harder than a cookie cutter (what?). the drums sound kinda dumb, since their digital and they cut out, but other than that, the recording is awesome. check it out http://beanman.dmusic.net. hopefully we can do this song in one of my many musical projects: OAW- (me and Zach), new thing- (me, Domnie, Cj, and 2nd guitarist), or Acoustic hippie jam thing (me and will). anyway, just listen to the song.

fuck tha police...

Thu, 03 Jun 2004 04:05:44 GMT

long time no update. ill try to make this short. i have to go to court on august 2nd because i comitted a crime. alot of people who know me may not think of me as a criminal, buit its true... i jaywalked. some cop with a stick up her ass pulled over and wrote tickets for me, adam, cj, and daphne, because we walked across the street while there was a red light. we were in the crosswalk, and no cars were coming, but i guess cops have no real crime to stop, so they pick on teenagers. cops hate me. anyway, the OAW show was awesome on SAturday. we played perfectly, and ran around like psychos. at one point, we were just standing on stage and we all had our pants down, and we just talked. and some chick grabbed my but while i was playing too... weird. me and adam are starting a new musical project, and i belive CJ and Tom will be in on it. thats all i can think of right now. peace.

"Ordinary people do fucked up things when fucked up things become ordinary."
-Propagandhi

Wed, 12 May 2004 07:25:48 GMT

life has been stressful. lots of school shit. OAW still needs to practice. health sucks.

"you're gonna drown in the mess you make, your self inflicted hate
you turn your back on the friends you lose, when they dont follow all your rules
but people are what they wanna be, they're not lemmings to the sea
maybe its time that you look at yourself, stop blaming life on someone else"
blink-182

Tue, 04 May 2004 04:32:54 GMT

"fuck this place, i lost the war, i hate you all, your mom's a whore, where's my dog, cause girls are such a drag" <-- probably one of the best lines from a song ever... blink is fuckin good.

Tue, 04 May 2004 04:29:57 GMT

"she said she'll see me in chicago"

oaw really needs to practice. saving silverman is one of my favorite movies. split habit is cool. i need to order tuners for my guitar. my computer sucks. i wasted alot of money over the weekend. i dont wanna work tomorrow. jeff brown me too.

Mon, 03 May 2004 02:15:50 GMT

wow, this weekend was so much fun. i'll try to remember as much as possible. on saturday, i met jerry and nat at del monte around 1. then we ran into kevin at the sunglass hut where he bought some expensive shades. then we all went to wherehouse where we ran into alex, adam, and myles. then people left and it was just me, adam, jerry, and nat. then we ran into daphne, cynthia and emily. i think. then domnie left and i went back to wherehouse and bought the Assorted Jellybeans cd and the Rock against Bush comp. then we hopped on the bus and went to alvarado. we stayed at the music store for about half an hour and i bought some straplocks. Woooo! then we got on the bus and went back to del monte again, where we ran into daphne and her friends again. then we saw rachel, lance, brad and a bunch of other people. anyway, the point is we saw just about everyone.
today, i went to cannery row and hung out with domnie while he worked. then he got off and we walked around for a while until we got bored. then we called good ol nina and asked her to hang out with us. we met her at this mini mart place. we walked to vans and adam got some shoes and then we went back to cannery row where i accomplished phase 1 of Operation Flaming Santa. afterwards, we got us some starbucks and adam got the last fuckin strawberry pastry thing. yeah to make a long story short we walked to alvarado and hung out more. i dont know, it wasnt really about where we went or what we bought though. it was just fun having conversations and doing stupid stuff. i am really carefree. im very happy with my life. im just trying to stay cool until school gets out. im really glad theres not any real drama in my life, i dont enjoy it at all. im gonna take a nap.

bread cut incident

Thu, 29 Apr 2004 03:16:25 GMT

ok, so i get home from work at about 6:30. play guitar for a while, do all that shit. anyway, i was really hyper when i sat down for dinner. then out of nowhere i get this urge to slam all the bread i can fit into my mouth. so i start shoving bread into my mouth, but then there's no more room, so i slam the bread against my face and forehead repeatedly. well, little did i know, that this wasnt ordinary bread, it was killer bread. it was perfectly toasted too much to give it that crispy, crunchy, hard to chew texture that we all love very much. so anyway, im slamming this bread into my face, when suddenly i feel a sharp stinging on my forehead. i reach up and touch it and there is blood on my finger. then i feel the blood start to run down my face. so i run down the hall to the bathroom. to wash it off, but it wouldnt stop. i kept bleeding all over from a hole in my forehead that was caused by a piece of fucking bread. anyway, it finally stopped bleeding just in time for me to come back to the table and slam my face into a piece of chocolate cake. then i just walked around for a while with frosting on my face trying to breakdance in the living room. i think im special...

Tue, 27 Apr 2004 04:52:16 GMT

ok, i suddenly just listened to this song and it changed my mood. so after you download "between you and me" by the ataris, get "sweet avenue" by jets to brazil.

"tasting you and rain I walk down to the train
try not to look down
this day could one day be an anniversary
everything is light and sound
facing forwards going slowly wait for you to show me
where this train wants to go
living by the hour I stop for every flower
everything is soft and slow
now all these tastes improve through the view that comes with you
like they handed me my life
for the first time it felt right
thank you for making me see there's a life in me
it was dying to get out
holding you we make two spoons beneath and April moon
everything is soft and sweet
this cigarette it could seduce
a nation with its smoke
crawling down my tired throat
scratches part of me that's purring
softly stirring
I'm a captain of industry smoking famously
feet up on the windowsill
look at all these trees I feel affinity with
everything so soft and still
budding at my fingertips
touching you I start to bloom
alive with trains and passing ships
soft and sweet along your lips now
I go "oh wow"
thank you for taking me from my monastery
I was dying to get out
with tears of gratitude
I like my latitude
cross town train to you
now all these tastes improve
through the view that comes with you
like they handed me my life for the first time it felt worth it
like I deserved it"

life is good...

Tue, 27 Apr 2004 04:47:36 GMT

"Why do we always seem to want what we can't have?"
-The*Ataris

this is one of my favorite ataris songs ever. it brings a tear to my eye every time i hear it. seriously it reminds me of things that happened in the past and things that are going on right now. donwload it as if your life depends on it.

ok, i went to baskin robins in seaside today and had way too much ice cream. i feel sick. star tests suck my nuts. listen to the new OAW song. www.purevolume.com/onearmedwaiters i swear we dont suck anymore. we finally have a show on may 29th, and its gonna be fun. really fun. i'm finally gonna be able to go back to being myself, i have been missing music so much and i really need to let it all go on stage.

caulk

Sat, 24 Apr 2004 04:46:28 GMT

i just back from work/party/work-party. it was pretty easy i guess. me and cj went secret agent style on all the little kids dancing in the dark. we totally snuck into the gym and unplugged their strobe light and stereo. then we kept saying caulk and people thought we were saying cock. and we're like "i need some caulk in my crack. i need to buy some caulk so bad. hey don't put that caulk in your mouth, it tastes terrible" and other such things. i'm working again tomorrow night, but its gonna suck cause i have no one to hang out with. zach and adam are both in san diego, and they are my best pals. whatever another night alone... which reminds me, i recorded some vocals last night, and it took me like 2 hours to get one song done, but it sounds good so it was worth it. in other news, i feel sorry from some people. people who can't realize that they have problems. and every time something comes up, they'll find some little excuse to make it seem like its not them. those kinda people are just gonna go on living in a world and wondering why everything is wrong with other people, when really, the problem is in them, and they need to do something about it. that made no sense. anyway, i have to go... yeah... you get it.

"ashtray monument... a life spent waiting in cement comes down..."

Wed, 21 Apr 2004 06:12:07 GMT

Jawbreaker is officially one of my favorite bands. They write the best lyrics I have ever heard and the singer has the most unique and interesting voice. It is real fuckin emo, not this new shit. Not "I'm crying cause you ripped my heart out and it bled all over the sidewalk and I want you so bad and im a boy who sings like a girl and i try to write catchy little phrases that are extremely cliche and dont really mean anything to me, but they are catchy and girls will like me more if i write them." that is not emo, thats bitching with melody and rhythm. Jawbreaker is the shit, they write the most awesome stuff ever. they write songs about unique things, like going to the dentists office or being a boat on a hill, but they make it sound like the most beautiful, emotional thing you've ever heard. now if you dont go listen to "Accident Prone" or "Jinx Removing" or "Sluttering", or any Jawbreaker song for that matter, i will shoot you.

OAW Song List

Sun, 18 Apr 2004 07:01:13 GMT

ok i just thought this would be a good place to write down all the songs we currently have. this is gonna include everything. this is just for my own personal enjoyment.

I dont wanna go to school, tapioca pudding, not today, schmenderick, can you tell me?, education (go!), breakfast, just leave me, 13, new shoes, alone, remote control, crappy acoustic song, keep going, summer, left socks, mrs. stenson, we've never been to jamaica, new one (i think its gonna be called Emergency Exit), [coverz] hope, dammit, linoleum, welcome to paradise, san dimas HS football rules, all the small things, unity, my right

...thats all i can remember, some of the songs have only been played once. we dont play half of them anymore. ok done.

harvest the fruit of my anus...

Sun, 18 Apr 2004 06:45:50 GMT

"Rape isn't funny... unless you're raping a clown."

Today, I actually did something productive. Zach came over at 4 and we wrote the script for and recorded our spanish video project things. then we stopped at Stu's and picked up drum mics. then zach got dropped off at safeway so he could buy flowers for lauren (aww, how cute). it's pretty crazy that they've been going out for a year.thats like... 12 months. anyway, then i went to domnie's and loaded up all our crap and came back home. now my nutsack feels like its on fire, which has nothing to do with anything. recording tomorrow. im gonna post the songs online as soon as they are done. here is my vote for the songs
1) Summer
2) 13
3) Keep Going
4) Someone Stole All My Left Socks
5) Alone
now that i think of it, we should really do a full length cd soon. we just need a few more songs. i had too many pop tarts today. yes too many pop tarts, it is possible.

Sat, 17 Apr 2004 07:21:54 GMT

wow, i really dont know whats going on with me. i had fun tonight, i guess. but as soon as i walked into my house, i felt way sad. i dont know what it is. i really just want to lay in bed and cry and never have to do anything ever again. i dont ever wanna have to go to school or work anymore. i just wanna play music and relax and hang out with friends and fall in love. thats all ever ever wanted. god, is that so much to ask? fuck.

Fri, 16 Apr 2004 20:41:00 GMT

"Hey guys, i was wondering... how dirty is dirt?"
-The Red Wiggle, while cleaning his guitar

Shit man, i love the Wiggles. they have songs about fruit salad and other such things. there's a show tonight that my band should be in, but we're not, because someone's a biatch and just doesnt like our music. you know what, thats really ok with me, because maybe your just not gonna be on the special thanks list on our platinum album, which happens to be called, "Fork + Nutsack = PARTY." Anyway, i wrote this hella cool song last night called "Rock Star", and its about all those fake shitheads who let the money get to them and they are just not nice people, kinda like people on Behind The Music. whatever, its a good song though. Speaking of songs, Domnie and I totally reworked the ending for this song "Keep Going" that he wrote. now its all hip hop crazy shit, but thats a good thing. i ate too many Pop tarts this morning, im gonna go vomit. bye.

OI OI!!!

Wed, 14 Apr 2004 05:06:42 GMT

WOOOO!!!! fuck me up the ass, NOFX rocks. the show last night was fucking crazy. Authority Zero was quite good, even though i had no idea who they were. then of course Alkaline Trio rocked hard shit. the whole crowd was pushing towards the front of the stage and it was crazy. Then, Jello gave his little talking speech thing which was almost the same thing as what he did at CSUMB, but it was still good. then, the real rock began... NO-F-mutherfuckin-X. it starts of with the litlle bassline/keyboard part for "Heart and Soul", and they El Hefe comes out with his trumpet and starts playing the melody. then the whole band comes in, and the entire crowd moves. seriously, there was not one person in the crowd standing still. it was rad. anyway, there was a nonstop circle pit the entire time, which i kept getting thrown out of. i only have a few bruises. zach crowd surfed like 5 times. ummm, ok im gonna try and remember the songs they played: Dinosaurs Will Die, I'm telling Tim, Murder The Government, All his Suits Are torn, Whats the matter with Parents today?, Louise, Bottles to The Ground, Linoleum, The Brews, Stickin in my Eye, Bleeding Heart Disease, Separation of Church and Skate, Franco Un American, Whoops I OD'd, Too Drunk To Fuck (w/ Jello), some other old songs i dont remember and... Theme from A NOFX album. in Too Drunk, Jello sang and humped a George Bush blow up doll. yeah, it was awesome. plus, there were tons of hot chicks in the crowd, which made it even better. ok, ill talk more later

nutsack

Fri, 09 Apr 2004 04:13:51 GMT

yea, what up mutha fuckas? so lately, i've just been chillin, going to school, and making awesome music. i got a haircut on Tuesday... I always get my hair cut too short, and it looks crappy, but then when it grows out, it becomes super awesome. I'm totally ready for break, I need it so bad. Im seeing Alkaline trio and NOFX on Monday and then partying all night on Friday, and thats all i have planned so far. oh yeah, recording on Sunday! i set up a purevolume account so we can put the songs on there as soon as they are done. lately, i keep saying nutsack. its a become a bad habit. im out.

BOTB 3

Sat, 27 Mar 2004 20:31:28 GMT

well, last night was quite fun. after school, jerry and i rode the bus to del monte center and chilled there. we went into radio shack and i played the keyboard drumset thing and jerry freestyled through this megaphone and everyone was watching us. then this one guy wanted to know our website, but i didnt wanna tell him... i dont know why. then we rode the bus to alvarado street and walked down to mcdonalds. after eating, we proceeded towards "bingville". we didnt wanna go in right away so we hung out at the park for awhile. everyone was jumping off the bridge and it was quite funny. then everyone went inside the battle, and me and zach went back out to mcdonalds so he could eat. when we got back again, it was still only the 2nd band, Marker. they were pretty good. the Muckruckers ended up winning, which i think they deserved. Episodic played well, but the music part was only 1/4 of the score. crowd involvement and stage presence were also rated, and the Muckruckers had the best crowd. then they played an encore and everyone was dancing and me and kc just stood back and laughed at people. yeah, band practice today. peace

Thu, 25 Mar 2004 02:34:01 GMT

check out my cool icon. its a fuckin door, and i dont know whats cooler than that. lately, life has just been kinda dumb. the quarter is coming to an end soon, so i have a bunch of tests coming up in all my classes. i havent really done any homework in the last 2 weeks, so my grades suck. as far as this weekend goes, i kinda fucked all my plans up. to make a long story short, im not doing anything. i might go to the battle of the bands on friday, but only if someone else wants to go, cause i really dont care about the music part. i just wanna hang out. OC tonight! i think thats all. i probably forgot something important. im done.

Fri, 19 Mar 2004 08:30:27 GMT

ok, i just had to post this so that i can have it recorded. tomorrow, well technically today... friday, will either be an insanely awesome good day or terrible shitty depressing day. oh, and i also wrote an extremely good song. alright, just had to have that written down somewhere. anyway, lately life hasnt been going too swell. im kinda sick and ive just been really down lately. maybe it's because i think too much. i dont feel like myself lately, especially tonight. maybe im just insane...

Wed, 17 Mar 2004 04:27:10 GMT

i know, alot of you are wondering, "what did adam do today?" well sit back and be enlightened. first, i went to school. it actually wasn't too bad. we didnt do anything in any of my classes, which is always cool. after school, i went to work. it sucked because i was feeling really sick and i was all hot and sweaty and gross. nothing exciting really happened until the end of the day when i was cleaning. I was just walking around wiping off all the tables when suddenly, domnie made the weirdest, grossest, funniest comment i have heard in a long time. due to the graphic and offensive nature of the comment, i cannot post it, but trust me, it was funny. yeah, that was the highlight of my day. oh yeah, i also got friday off so now i dont have to work before the show and get all tired. which reminds me, it really sucks that ATM had to cancel their tour. i really just wanted to see them play "the ocean is a fuck of a long way to swim" because i love that song. plus they are just plain cool. digression. anyway, after work i went and got chinese food at the Golden Buddha. it was quite yummy. then i went home and had gross tasting medicine and drank tea.

OAW version 2.0

Tue, 09 Mar 2004 06:21:09 GMT

woooo!!! oaw is back together!!! im way happy. im glad that adam kinda forgave me for what happened and that we can continue to be good ol pals. man, i was really starting to miss him. im kinda having mixed emotions right now. im happy about the band being back together, but i've been thinking about other stuff and its not too happy.

Fri, 05 Mar 2004 06:40:25 GMT

wow, this sucks. marlee's grounded for 2 fucking weeks. thats like forever. now im never gonna see her. hopefully her parents will change their minds or something. god, i was looking forward to this weekend so much, and now its not gonna be half as much fun without her. anyway, im going to a beach party tomorrow, i guess. hopefully it'll be like last summer. i had so much fun hanging out, singing along to songs on the acoustic guitar, lighting Pez heads on fire, jumping off stuff, eating fruit loops on the bathroom roof, and just being stupid. but my gut is telling me it wont be the same. in other news, alex's show has been moved to chippers. i was looking forward to a change of scenery, but its still gonna be a good show. fuck. marlee better go, im gonna be depressed if i dont see her. ok, now i sound obsessed. whatever. there is some good news though... zach has found us some possible drummers. i really need a band. OAW has been my life for the past year, and now we're only 2/3 complete. playing music helped relieve stress so much. and even though our music was pretty happy, it helped me vent alot of anger... i need a fucking band!!! ok, im going to sleep before i die of frustration.